Yesterday, I was very upset and sitting with my friend and my friend started quizzing me, Y was I upset, why was I different than before. Where was that energetic Awwab, who was motivated, who used to smile. Who was so Optimistic. I tried to explain why I was sad or upset. And she negated my points and as I was trying to explain more to convey I had a reason to be upset, internally I knew I did not have a valid case. Then she reminded me how I was so energetic and motivated just two weeks ago.
Then we tried to think what had changed in the last 2 weeks. Couple of things:
- I was sitting with people who were worrying themselves and trying to tell me I should have a backup plan, we may have some issues after around 4 months. I know they advice me this way only bcos they care for me.
- I was getting upset with so many other things in the environment which were wrong. etc..
Ultimate result, we had an Upset Awwab :(
We were together able to identify the reason for it, U know when you know your weakness, you can work to get over it. So luckily in this conversation my friend showed me the mirror and how ugly I looked when I was upset. So I realized the points that had made me such and resolved right then, that I am not getting into any conversation about this matter nor am I going to worry about things that do not concern me. It was such a relief.
The result of the conversation: Today morning I was in office before 7 a.m. and I left office around 3:45. I devoted all my time to pending items finishing things that I was putting in the pending list as I thought they were not urgent. I scheduled a meeting for some task with my Strategy guru whom I was benefiting from 2 weeks ago and had some blog posts about him earlier. We discussed work and in the end he taught me one more new thing today. he explained to me the quadrants of Urgent vs. Important and how to handle tasks based on these quadrants, it was lovely learning. Now I can identify anything that I am doing whether it is worth or not, whether I am being proactive or reactive. I am enjoying it, so I know when I am sitting on my computer and doing something Not Important and Not Urgent while missing other things which are Important and Urgent, how I am putting my self into a situation where I will have to be reactive later. Amazing, I love talking and learning from this brother. Makes things so simple. I wish I can work more with him. As what he teaches applies to work as well as personal life.
So thanks to my friend firstly for gettin me back on track and then my Strategy Guru to give me the motivational boost... And Thanks to Allaah for keeping me around such great people. Niyaamah! U really have to be lucky to have good people around u.
Yes, this is a different Awwab, the one thats full of Energy and motivated to conquer the world with a smile :)
